Sorry it's been so long...

Well hello there faithful friends! It is I, I have returned, and I must say I am very deeply sorry for being gone so long. I must catch you up to what has happened in my life:

1. I graduated from college....I did get that 4.0 my last semester (hello President's list!) and it was time for me to start looking for the ultimate career job, little did I know it would take 3 months to find any sort of job in my field/

2. I got the job in my field, which is pretty hard, especially in the town I am in. So, I started working as an editor for a local TV station. It was fun...it still is actually, but I have "moral" issues with the news, and just don't feel it is my calling.

3. Speaking of callings, I found out that my true calling it not in media at all....more like psychology. Who knew? So, I'm applying to go back to grad school for my PsyD in clinical psychology. I'm very excited about it!

4. I finally got the great job I've been searching for!! In the media field at a non-profit organization, and it is double what I was making at the TV station (yes, TV stations really don't pay well at all, the only time that pay is good is when you are talent). Praise God for that!!

So, that's basically a recap of my life, almost a year of it. I hope it was short and sweet for you all. Until I blog again, take great care and keep on reading!

20,000 down, just one to go!

I have to start out and apologize for not writing in what seems like forever. I know it's been a few months, but it just seems that this semester just went crazy! I didn't get my 4.0 that I wanted, but I got pretty close (3.825), which means I make dean's list. That's pretty exciting for me.
Well, this being my last semester and all, it just feels strange. What will I do now that I am graduating college? So many ask in attempt to get this amazing answer like I'm going to cure cancer or save the world...but the typical answer I give is, "well, my whole goal was to graduate college, I didn't really see that happening, so there's no more of the plan...sometimes you can overplan these things." Ok, so that was meant to be a joke, but in all honesty, I still have no clue what God has in store for me and honestly, I'm not scared one bit!
I did try for this internship in NYC for the summer. What an opportunity that would have brought, but alas, they didn't want me. I am doing an internship at KRDO, a local TV studio in town, so I'm excited to get that started.
All I know is that I love producing, setting up stories, coming up with ideas for good shows, things like that. I love the weather, and would like an opportunity to combine television and weather. I know what some of you are thinking, "Jules, they already have that, it's called THE WEATHER CHANNEL!!" Yes, this is true, and how many people love those "storm stories" that are aired all the time?? My point exactly...
So, in order to get this accomplished, I feel as though I will take some time off of school, then jump back in to get my masters in meteorology. I just love that science...
So, that's what my goals are for now....until next time I write, have a pleasant life.
Oh yeah one more thing....I GRADUATE MAY 2006!!!

The Catch 22 of life

What is the deal with needing experience to get into the field of your dreams, but then needing a job to get that experience? Why do you need 3 years, or 5 years, or even 10 years? Couldn't they just settle for 1 year, or 6 months, especially if it is a repitious job? I was looking in the local paper this weekend, because I am in the pursuit of a new job...I've been a secretary before, it is a very easy job. I saw most of them needing years of experience. WHY?!?! You file, answer phones, deal with customer service, etc...it's not that hard to learn.
My whole dream is to be able to film "mini documentaries" for the Travel Channel. How awesome would it be if I could travel the world filming the 10 best beaches in Hawaii, most haunted places in the US, the greatest hotels....*sigh*. So, in order to make my dream a reality, I checked out thier website, thier job site. I need 3 years, 5 years, experience plus my BA...Which isn't too bad, but aren't I already developing that experience with my classes? I'm filming a documentary at this very moment in one of my classes!
I think the biggest problem in this world is that it (that being "making it") requires connections. It's all about who you know, and unfortunately, who you blow. Should it not be about your talent?? I'm not saying that I'm the greatest film maker in the world, but I shouldn't have to sacrifice my morals for a chance at using it.
So, tomorrow, it will be back to the newspaper to find another job...and with wishful thinking, I'll get a job in my field...but we'll see.

I'm almost done!!!

I just wanted to let you all know that I am sorry I haven't kept you entertained with my facsinating stories. I just started my fall semester, and am working two jobs now, so I guess you can say that I am a little busy these days. I like my semester so far, I am taking 12 credits, and one class (worth 3 credits) will be over this weekend. IT is a lot of work in the beginning, but I think it will all be fine in the end. I am worried about one class though, my COMM 330 class, or scriptwriting. I think my teacher might be harsh in his grading (granted, he should be, this isn't kindergarten), and I am so insecure about my writing, especially when it comes to writing scripts. I guess you can say that I'm not the most creative person in that aspect. I have great stories, but I just don't know how to get them into a "movie style". I guess I'll keep you posted on that one. I'm also in public relations, and intermediate tv production, where this semester, we are making a documentary. I'm excited about that. Anyway, I guess that was a great tangent from the beginning huh?!?! That's how my mind works. So stick around for the great stories of my second to last semester, or my last year in college. YEAH! I get to make parole in a year!!! It's a joke people, laugh it up...

Where have all the real men gone?

I will admit that I have a slight crush on a guy that I've known for a few months now. We went out on a date, and have been keeping up on email, but by the way he was writing his emails, it seemed as though he didn't like me. I am completely easy-going, and if he didn't have feelings for me, that's perfectly fine, no skin off my nose. Friday night, I talk to his friend who brings up a conversation about him out of the blue. I told him I didn't think anything was going to happen with us, and he said that I "shouldn't give up hope" because he does like me but is intimidated by me.
It is so funny because it seems that every guy that I have had some interest in has been so intimidated by me that they act like a deer in headlights around me, and then stop talking to me altoghether, like I was on the prowl, and about to attack! I've found it funny for awhile, but it does get tiring after awhile. I've thought a hundred times what could possibly be so intimidating about me...my flirtatious/joking nature, my independent strong side...it is so confusing.

I think my biggest pet peeve is that men are just not men anymore. Maybe it is just a "John Eldridge" society that I am circling, where men need to cry every 2 seconds, but it just seems that there are no manly men left on this earth. Could it possibly be that they took the woman's movement in the 60's so seriously that they think a woman should make all the moves? Could you imagine a society in where the women become men, and men become women? WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TO!!!
Someday I would really like to meet a man who would "be a man" and if they wanted to date me, actually ask for my phone number, take me out to dinner, and be a complete gentleman about it, without me having to show any interest at all. I guess I need to travel back in time to the 50's, where men were men, and treated ladies with respect. *sigh*
I was told long ago, that if you showed any interest in a man, then he would lose interest in you fast. How can you practice this if they won't make a move!!
Why do men have to be so intimidated by beautiful women, that they won't even dare to come close to her all night, but will be perfectly fine around a semi-pretty girl? Is it the fear of rejection that controls thier every moment in life???
I guess there will never be a resolution, so I will close for now, but I'm telling you now, this isn't the last you'll hear from me about this!!! *enter evil laugh* I'll keep you posted.

WHAT IS UP!!!

Tuesday night I decided to have a night out, so I asked two of my buddies, which happened to be guys to go with me. I should probably enlighten you on how these guys usually are. They are quite fun to hang out with, but they are sort of on the immature side, especially when it comes to girls. one has a girlfriend, and the other is single, but I only have the interest of being JUST FRIENDS with both of them. I don't know if it is thier ego, or just a manly thing, but I think that they have this idea that I want them, and it isn't true at all! So, we went to this movie, and we barely said 5 words to eachother. I should have just gone to the movies by myself! Granted, I am a flirty female, but I have had a conversation with these boys about this before. I just don't understand how they both can be so uncomfortable around me! I think I might just have to talk to them both about this, and if they feel so uncomfortable around me, then obviously we can't just be friends, and that bothers me so bad. Why do men have to be so stupid?

Happy

So, this will be a short blog, but I just wanted to say that at this point in my life, I'm truly happy. God is really blessing my life so much, wow He's so faithful! Even though finals are stressful, and how I really wanted a 4.0 this semester, knowing that I won't get it, I'm fine with that. I've finally realized that I want God's Will in my life, and that's all. It's like comparing it to the eyes (if I can set this analogy). a few months ago, I went in for a check-up, and had my first dialation ever. When it was being explained to me, they were trying to sell me on a new procedure that allows the doctors to see 200% of the back of your eye (this is what they said) as opposed to the original way with the drops, it only allows the doctors to see 30%, and I compared it to my life. like the drops, I can only see 30% of my life, my future...whereas God can see 200% of my life, He sees everything, and when I'm praying for something, He knows if it is something that should or shouldn't happen. So now, with everything, I pray that His Will be done. This is also for my friends and family I pray for. Yeah, I thought this would be short...ha ha! Anyway, take care everyone, God bless!