Truly Crazy

So, yesterday, April 9th...it was one of my kitty's birthday. YEAH! She turned 11. I also have another kitty, and she is 12, about to be 13 in July 4th. She had been acting very tired, and just not herself lately. We noticed that she hadn't been drinking water or even eating in a few days, and she had gotten so thin. We decided to take her to the vet, and as we horribly expected, her kidneys were failing. This was quite upsetting for me, she is my little girl, I recieved her for my 10th birthday, and had her for so long, we sorta grew up together. So, we said our good-byes, and then we euthanized her. She went very peacefully...although I was a basket-case afterwards. It was not just the fact that I've had her for so long, and she now it gone, but it also brought back every emotion from losing my father 2 years ago. Watching her die, was like watching him die. Yes, I do realize that you can't compare a human life to an animal, but in this instance you can. See, my father had Chronic-Progressive Multiple Schlerosis, he was bed-ridden for 7 years, and the day that he died, I found him in his bed. So, I really haven't gotten over it yet, and I really am trying to, so seeing her die, just shot me right back to that day. Oh yeah, just a side note, I know the last two posts have been quite depressing...I really don't have a depressing life, I'm always VERY happy, and it is best to be upbeat about things than constantly sad and depressed. I believe that God will only give you what you can handle, so I know that if I go through something, God is just making me stronger. I do appreciate it. Anyway, this just helps if I get my feelings out. So, thanks for those of you who read it, thanks for listening.